Easy Reading. Hard Writing.

magic.

Sun, 19 Aug 2012 23:47:50 -0400

it’s in the smoke
that pours from my mouth.
it buries itself into you
there is no escape.
i’m floating over nothing.
scared that i’ll drop.
what else can i do?
this is the life i have chosen.

caroline clementine.

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 07:02:24 -0400

she’s a clean, white, blank slate.
handed to me with no instructions.
what am I to do?
she’s stumbling around my past mistakes.
dangerously teetering on the edge.
eyes wide with what she does not know.
can’t she see why I want her safe?
why I cannot allow her to tag along?
so young. so safe.
the world is raging at her window,
but all she can see is blue skies.
am I to stand by and watch her fall,
fall as I did?
no one to catch me.
am I strong enough to catch her?
caroline clementine, careful.

spain, ohio.

Wed, 04 Jul 2012 00:28:06 -0400

introduce chili peppers
bouncing into the room
to a to-tilly-tally-wally
beat, tune, song
hand over the maracas,
mama cita.
just because my spanish
is next to none
does not mean the salsa
is yours to dance
step aside!
for mexico is inches away.

Shower.

Sat, 23 Jun 2012 14:52:58 -0400

I step in carrying last night on my chest.
The hot steam begins lightening my burden,
scolding water sends sweet shivers sliding down my spine.
Soapy bubbles pop away the chlorine,
from the pool party with spiked Gatorade.
Facial cleanser scrubs off my makeup imprints.
Shampoo to rid my hair of the scent of shisha.
Turn the water off and I still feel filthy,
covered in the tattoos of what I’ve been up to all night.
But I step out and let the cool air of reality snap me awake.
Brush the alcohol out of my mouth,
until my tongue is numb and my gums bleed.
Its all gone. All of the evidence. My body is clean.

Lavender Sugar Cookies and Tea.

Tue, 29 May 2012 16:44:34 -0400

Writing with these treats to keep me company.

I face the mirror.

Sun, 27 May 2012 23:52:11 -0400

But I can’t even look myself in the eye.

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Fri, 27 Apr 2012 01:23:51 -0400

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blind.

Thu, 26 Apr 2012 17:11:10 -0400

we went hiking and
you stopped me.
“look,” you whispered.
and I saw the wind
rustling the green.
how did I miss that?
you open my eyes
to the things I once
missed.

4/20

Sat, 21 Apr 2012 23:39:03 -0400

what are you?
why am i so buzzed?
amy puffed and i inhaled.

smoke in the hallway
leading to a dark, empty bed.

i stare down whoever,
and covet the spout.
God, i just want to feel
for once.

bow my head and
iiiiiiiin, in goes the magic.
the sweet shisha.
diana giggles too much
and bradley thinks he’s a badass.

height doesn’t matter,
when you’re in the clouds with us.

friendship.

Tue, 17 Apr 2012 23:12:34 -0400

I can act like an idiot around
you and you will just laugh
and the two of us will live
young and free.

too many screens.

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 22:06:48 -0400

drifting to sleep, my
crazed little beastie boys.
in the dark of the morning
I shall run, head down and
breath shallow. this is what
I look forward to. “I’m gonna
knock you out! mama said”
how you like me nooowww?
kickin’ it old school on
this barbecue of a futon.
hush, now, mama said cool j.
two L’s are better than
none.

check.

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 06:39:46 -0400

do my makeup
yes, yes
nice, nice.

outfit?
Mmm, decent,
I’d say.

Sanity?
oh, straight out
the door,
I’m afraid.

1:28 am.

Mon, 16 Apr 2012 01:23:00 -0400

thinking of school makes me want to barf.
and pound my head against the wall.
fuck. everything.

the perks of being a wallflower.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 22:45:11 -0400

if someone ever bought me this, i would love them forever. I can never find it in stores. Always. Sold. Out. And it’s my favorite book.

for my future daughter.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 22:28:00 -0400

stay young.
be a child for as long as you can.
have no regrets.
know that you’re loved.
and when you get your heart broken,
know that God is preparing
a truly amazing man for you.
and he’s perfect.
you don’t need any boy
who wants you to change.
girls can be bitches.
we know exactly what to say to wound.
but don’t let them turn you
into one of them.
live and learn.
make friends.
realize that not all friendships last.
but the ones that do are miracles.
never be anyone but yourself.
if you get lost along the way,
don’t be afraid.
God will catch you.
He will always catch you
in His open arms.
I hope I’m a good role model for you.
I’ve made my share of mistakes
and then some.
you’ll make it.
you can change the world.
you can be anything you want to be.
I’ll support you forever.
I’ll love you no matter what.

moon.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 22:20:01 -0400

I just want to hide away.
wrap myself in a blanket,
and linger in that beautiful place
between sleep and awake.
find my way in the haze
of love and loss.
give myself a rest.
find out who comes looking for me.
I just want to escape.

me.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 15:54:19 -0400

me.

being a girl.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 15:12:08 -0400

sometimes i hate being a
girl.
watching myself over think
everything.

i know it's wrong.

Sun, 15 Apr 2012 13:31:42 -0400

this flirting.
the teasing.
the fluttering lashes and
seconds too long stares.
but….
but you’re flirting back.
you know it’s unrealistic, too.
so what are we doing?
this dance should end.
we should go back
to being nothing.
we really should…

people suck.

Fri, 13 Apr 2012 23:24:27 -0400